This is one of those posts that I am in dire need of writing, because I don't know if Jandies is fully aware of why I love him so dearly. Every time I would talk to him on the phone, before I would hang up he would always tell me he loved me. Love has never been an easy word for me to understand or even want to understand. The forms of love I knew and was accustomed to, were not what I wanted to have coming from him. For a while I would just laugh and hang up the phone but he never stopped saying it. I never truly understood Jandies love for me until this past summer at camp where he bothered me to the point of no return about my touching phobia. I told him all that I had held back about my past from him and waited for the judgement to come. One great thing about him is he never holds his tongue with me and was never scared to tell me what he thought I was doing or had done was wrong or irresponsible. All he told me after my stained past had come up was that he loved me. Love. The word I had never understood from him finally made sense. I was being loved unconditionally from a man who was letting Christ love through him.
Since then we have certainly had our disagreements, misunderstandings, disregard for the others feelings and, from his end, stern talking to's! But I know now that regardless of what I say, do or think- Jandies will always love me. The life changing lesson God taught me through John, is that I will never not be loved. Not the kind of love that hurts, waivers or leaves you, but the kind of love that will lift you up on your worst days and comfort you when the world hurts. Jandies, you are an absolutely incredible example of unconditional love and I pray everyday that you will continue loving others the way you have loved me. I truly, truly love you forever.
1 John 4:18
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made in perfect love."